I’m not in a good place right now.
But I am trying.
I’m still going at that positive energy thing despite the… everything.
I woke up to go to class even though I just wanted to hole myself in… possibly forever.
I stayed back to study with M till late even though I wanted to excuse myself and go back to bed.
I bruised my brain trying to unravel the mysteries of French Gender even though I wanted to devote every precious second to moping.
And I am glad to have hung in there.
Because I was left a note in the morning by B…
And I got a call from Aa just as I’d finished texting her…
MB texted me when she had all but 8% left in her phone… and she finished the much needed counselling just as it hit 1%.
And Shaz. I got off a stop earlier on the train because I didn’t get her call. Went to look for something I needed in the kitchen and couldn’t find it at all. Decided not to take the bus. Took the train to my shuttle stop. Got there 20 minutes earlier. Decided to walk the first floor of a mall through an entrance I almost never take. And there she was. By a shop I never knew existed.
Then someone said something that reminded me of a quote that I’d forgotten for a while, but couldn’t have come at a better time… “Everything is going to be alright in the end. If it is not alright… Then it is not the end.”
If that’s not a sign that my… OUR guardian angel is telling me to hang in there… I don’t know what is.
So thank you… all of you.